This is a collection of "tweet-like" thoughts I've had for the past several weeks with nowhere to put them.
1. Lesbian yumes are so important. I recently saw an oguri cap yume and literally pumped my fist because people who GET IT are out there. In general uma musume femtrainer self-inserts are pretty prolific which is fun to see. More fandoms with invisible player inserts should adopt this stuff. There's a small blue archive femsensei presence also, which is very valuable-- because the blue archive fandom sucks SO BAD that the tiniest flower growing in the blasted and churned gravel should be appreciated. I remember we used to see some Arknights femdoctors here and there too.
2. The Wuthering Waves official twitter account cannot keep getting away with this (*just finished the Phrolova story....*)
3. Speaking of Wuthering Waves it supports Steam Deck OLED now, which means its like, the one of these Gacha games thats running natively on some kind of Linux. I'm probably not going to move to Linux but its nice to know at least one of the games I play would still be functional in some capacity. Most normal games work fine on Linux now but gacha games all have weird anti-cheat solutions.
4. My household has become INSANELY uma pilled recently. The Japanese Horse Racing Triple Crown has never been such a household name as it is right now in the Madiha household.
4a. My favorite horses are Kitasan Black and Meisho Doto. Their respective partners are also high on my list.
5. I've been getting into net zero carb bread products, not because I'm going keto but because all of them are low calorie and high fiber. I tried out "Hero bread" and "mission" brand net zero tortillas and they've vastly improved my gut situation. I've fallen into a comfortable rhythm of having either homemade bean burritos or an egg sandwich for breakfast, and then having a protein shake and some fruit for an easy working lunch. Super easy way to get your fiber in there and just live the rest of your day (that is, dinner) however you want to. I found a coffee-flavored protein powder that just straight up has caffeine in it, which further shrinks down the amount of meal-type things I have to do, so I can most efficiently have my labor exploited by my employer.
6. My day job recently has involved a lot of LLMs. That's kind of just how it is in the tech business, and especially in the side of the tech business that I'm in. I'm not about to quit my stable job and let ChatGPT have it that easily though, so I'm doing my best to look starry eyed on calls when my boss asks me how the robot is doing and how I am I doing with the robot.
7. I've had occassion to learn a lot about how ChatGPT and Deepseek et al "work", to the degree that they do. I've also had occassions to both prompt several models and to witness the results. One kinda interesting thing you can do is go to Deepseek, give it any random slightly complicated reasoning question you can think of, and turn on DeepThinkR1. You'll see a log of its "reasoning" for the answer it gives you-- sometimes this is condescending as fuck to witness to a hilarious degree. But it's kind of interesting to watch how this "log" of the process results in the "output"-- to the degree that it does. This feels in itself obfuscatory-- letting you see some interpretation of the "magic trick" gives me nothing but more reasons to distrust the generation of the output, as I feel that this "reasoning" is itself a deflection from, and not a reflection of, the mathematics behind the process. Treating this like anthropomorphized "thinking" rather than mechanical "processing" is the core notion behind the kinda cute little log the robot makes-- its weirdly endearing but the fundamentals are flawed and propagandistic. I believe LLMs are fundamentally, methodologically broken for the uses they are being put to (which is *everything*) in such a way that the growing reliance upon them will make life worse for everyone-- and that's on top of their use as a labor-disciplining force ("taking jobs" etc).
7a. I use DeepSeek instead of ChatGPT to support Chinese products and do my part for the Chinese Century.
7b. I shake my head every time I do anything LLM-related so everyone knows I disagree with the whole endeavor. Unless my boss is watching me. Then I nod vigorously at him.
8. Third complete rewrite of Emptiness Effigied has begun. We're getting close to something. I'm growing increasingly unhinged with each one of these.
9. I'm planning on not really being "seen again" until 2026, if I live that long with access to a computer and all that.
9a. I'm really frustrated with myself and with other people. I'm trying to let my antisocial stress recede a little.
10. What exactly lies on the other side of "dad turning the car around?" Is it just that you won't go to wherever you're going? Or is it that Dad is taking you from a place where his violence is inconvenient (in public, in the cramped space of a car under his control) to a place where he can perform unrestrained violence (presumably the home?) I've had a morbid fascination with how people use this phrase for a bit because I've never been in this situation but it does feel like Dad would take you home to beat you out of sight. Given what I know about fathers.